“She had a way of pulling herself back together into something that was unstoppable. ” JmStorm
5 days in the high desert, standing barefoot in the Rio Grande, staring up at Santa Elena Canyon in absolute awe of God’s handwork, I finally decided to own who, and how, God created me to be. Let me tell you, it wasn’t an easy pill to swallow.
I’ve spent most of my life as a people pleaser. I do not like conflict. I’ve always been the “yes” man. If it meant making other people happy, lightening their load, or brought them peace… I would set myself on fire to keep them warm.
Yeah, God created me to be a helper, a nurturer, a lover, a light giver. A storyteller. Wordsmith. He didn’t create me to be an enabler or a door mat. He has filled my live with joy and my heart with love. The kind of peace I finally have can only come from one place.
Doors flew off the hinges this weekend as I picked back up the title of daughter of the most high king. Divinely created. Unconditionally loved. Tender hearted. Passionate. Kind. Full of grace. REALLY intense at times, sensitive in others. Compassionate. All gifts from him that aren’t bad things to possess, especially in these times.
My worth can only be found in one place.
Self worth comes from God. Not from one’s achievements. Not from people. Not from outward appearances. Not from materialistic possessions. But from God alone.
My prayer tonight is that you find your peace and let go of the things that are not from him that are weighing you down.
Sending big love.
GOD, my shepherd! I don’t need a thing. You have bedded me down in lush meadows, you find me quiet pools to drink from. True to your word, you let me catch my breath and send me in the right direction.
Psalm 23:1-2 MSG